Right now my emotions are raw. I have been up since 5 this morning and you know how I say all the time how I believe that God is in the details of life. Well this morning is no exception. Let me jump back a little.
Do you see the purple..........I guess you rarely see that.
Hannah, Ellianna's Momma and I have been very close these last few years. For that I am one grateful lady. Her life has been one of ups and downs.........just like mine when I was young. To get to be there for her when she needs me has been a blessing! Walking with through Ellianna's little life has been one of the hardest. I can only imagine a Momma's heart. Having a little girl who came into the world that would have to fight every minute of her little life. I knew we were not going to be able to go to Colorado Sad. I accepted that and knew that the Lord was in control and He knew best. That was when we got a call that some family (found out later families) in Colorado had paid our way to get there and back. The other thing was someone had reserved 8 hotel rooms for those that needed a place to stay. That was us!!!!!!!!! So everything we needed was ready for us to come, if we could do that. Mr. Honey prayed and we left........yesterday. Praying all the way that we would not have car trouble. Every time we go somewhere something seems to happen. Well we weren't disappointed..........the car was doing great and all of a sudden it quit!!!!!!! Yep, quit........we only had a little bit to get to the turn off and a gas station........thank you Jesus! He was so good. Mr. Honey waited a bit, checked the car out and it started up again. Only enough to get us to the gas station. Stopped again. At least we were not cooking out in the sun and were where he could get things if we needed them. He looked under the car and there was a loose wire that had come undone. He just so happened to have some black electrical tape in the car......so glad I have him......he thinks of everything I sure wouldn't bring that on a trip. smile! He fixed it and off we went again.
We got so excited about the mountains that we would see. We kept looking and looking. We came up over this hill and we got on the top.........there they were. The clouds were in the way and we could see lots of rain, which we were also excited to see. We knew what was behind those clouds though!!!!!
We finally pulled into the funeral home. This was not going to be easy. I had to be strong right? Well I tried. Children funerals have got to be the hardest. To see Hannah's face broke my heart. Even though it is very hard for me I went to see little Ellianna for the first time. She was so so tiny ladies. But the most precious beautiful little girl. It was a heavy time..........lots of emotions was going on in the room. Very tough, but I was so thankful that the Lord got us there.
Major Megan was the one that met us when we got in town. She escorted us to the place we were going to stay at the Air Force Academy. Talk about fun for the girls. When Meagan got to the funeral home she said that there was a huge rainbow outside. Everyone left to go outside. It was just what we all needed. A little break...........God was showing us in His creation that He was in the details. We thanked HIM!
This is what I said good night to last night!
This morning I woke up early.......I was just about to have an appointment with God that I would not forget. You know how yesterday we had Building Our Homes Together? I thought I would check out who came. I was reading Dicky Bird's Nest, she said to go to Our Crazy Farm, I went........and started reading...............it was just like it was for me. I was touched beyond, my heart was encouraged and hurt at the same time. Terri and her family know what it is to lose someone dear, their precious son. I again realized how God is so in the detail of my life. I wept and wept.......it was good for my soul. This precious family used their son's death to give glory to their Heavenly Father. I am better prepared to go to this funeral. Thank you Lord for detailing my life. We are out here in Colorado for one purpose to share Jesus with those who need Him and for those who need to be encouraged by HIM! Pray that we will be a blessing! Please pray that we can be strong during this very difficult time in our life.
This verse was special in Our Crazy Farm's family.......now it is in ours.
I have not proofed this. I am out the door..........please keep me close in prayer. My heart is feeling heavy.
I love you!
new heavens and a new earth.
The former things will not be remembered,
nor will they come to mind. But be glad and rejoice forever
in what I will create,
for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight
and its people a joy. I will rejoice over Jerusalem
and take delight in my people;
the sound of weeping and of crying
will be heard in it no more. “Never again will there be in it
an infant who lives but a few days,
or an old man who does not live out his years;
the one who dies at a hundred
will be thought a mere child;
the one who fails to reach[a] a hundred
will be considered accursed. They will build houses and dwell in them;
they will plant vineyards and eat their fruit. No longer will they build houses and others live in them,
or plant and others eat.
For as the days of a tree,
so will be the days of my people;
my chosen ones will long enjoy
the work of their hands. They will not labor in vain,
nor will they bear children doomed to misfortune;
for they will be a people blessed by the LORD,
they and their descendants with them. Before they call I will answer;
while they are still speaking I will hear. The wolf and the lamb will feed together,
and the lion will eat straw like the ox,
and dust will be the serpent’s food.
They will neither harm nor destroy
on all my holy mountain,”
says the LORD.
I can't imagine how hard the funeral will be for their families and your family. Unimaginable pain. I am praying.
I love those verses from Isaiah :)
All of you will be in my thoughts and prayers!! Praise God, through the good and the bad. Only He knows when we are created and when we are to leave this earth. I wish death wasn't so hard on us humans. Isn't it our hearts desire to be with Him in Heaven? Shouldn't it be a joy for when that finally happens? But we take death hard, especially children. We don't know why God didn't grant them longer time on this earth He created. It hurts. I am hurting for those of you who had Ellianna in your hearts, her family especially. I can't imagine the pain in losing your precious child. My heart, thoughts and prayers are with her family and friends.ReplyDelete
I wish your trip out here could be on happier times. Colorado is a beautiful place. The mountains are my favorite, which is why we live in them. Hugs to you Linda.
Oh Linda! What a tremendous blessing in such a difficult time! God has surely let His face shine upon you. I know I'm typing this 'after-the-fact' but you are in my thoughts now and in my prayers each evening. Have a safe trip back!ReplyDelete
Praying for everyone to feel the loving comfort of the arms of Jesus.ReplyDelete
Praying for you all as you bring comfort to little Ellianna's family and for a safe trip home.ReplyDelete
Linda, you are so brave, and thank you for sharing the beauty of God's skies with us, even as you cry and pray. How kind that someone booked rooms for you. I pray you will be comforted and feel the arms of Jesus supporting you all.ReplyDelete
Linda~I am praising God with you for His sovereign hand over the details of our lives. He never fails to amaze me with His works.ReplyDelete
Through our walk of suffering we have not had to doubt God's perfect plan in all of this. My heart breaks for this little girls mother, but I am encouraged with the hope that they know the Lord.
God will prove Himself to be all that He promised to be. Praying that they will trust Him to lead them through this painful trial.
Your sweet comment brought so much joy and encouragement to me today. Your blog is such a peaceful, God honoring place to visit. You are shining Jesus through it. Terri
I have been so touched by all of this...! Jesus is working thru this "blog land" No doubt about it! We all have a different walk in this life, some up more hills, some down deeper valleys. By boldly posting expressions of Faith and the evidence of it working in each of our lives is truly a ministry! Blessing and prayers to all who read. Linda - this "building our homes" is your ministry and I am glad to read and share with others!ReplyDelete
While I read your blog every day, I don't always comment. But know... I'm here...reading.
I can tell you, I have been where Ellianna's parents are now. I can also tell you, so afraid was I to open my mouth, not trusting what would come out, I was unable to truly express the depth of my gratitude to those near, offering comfort.
Linda, what you and your family have done for Ellianna and her family, despite your own personal obstacles, is beyond words.
So, my dear Linda, thank you. Thank you for caring so much about your family, your friends, and other human beings. I may not tell you enough, but your love for others is inspiring.
I am so thankful for the doors that opened in order for you all to go....Thinking of you all and praying that there will be ONE who finds the Lord through all of this.....You are a precious lady and I know that God is directing your path to bring comfort to those you love...
blessings my dear sweet lady..
Bless you and yours, Linda. Colorado is such a beautiful place. I will pray for your strength as you are there for Ellianna's family. I was about 11 when one of my baby cousins died. He had been sick for a few months. I remember it being a very difficult funeral, and my heart hurt for the family.. as it does now for little Ellianna's loved ones. Please send hugs and love from all of us to her family. Prayers also for your safe return! -TammyReplyDelete
Linda, I never dreamed you would get the opportunity to post today. I assumed with the funeral and all, you would be extremely busy.ReplyDelete
So thankful God was with you on this trip!
Praying the Holy Spirit will be with you on the trip home.
Linda I remember my co worker lost her five year old grandson. Seth was black. His best friend was white. At his service this beautiful blonde haired angel got up to speak. She turned her eyes towards Heaven and stated, very matter a factly," I loved Seth, he was my best friend but today he is in the arms of Jesus!" I was sitting next to another co worker who was a rabid atheist. She was sobbing and could not stop. I gently patted her arm and said "Lucy, God has another plan for you." I hope she never forget Him. Because she passed away last Christmas. I was so close to you just 70 miles. I wish I could have been there for all of you. Love AnneReplyDelete